Male Entitlement
Some guys feel insulted at the prospect of subscribing to my onlyfans, as if it would farther their reach from me, remove any possibility of me perceiving them as a romantic option, or just simply causing me to feel more entitlement because of the perceived female superiority and advantage over men in the dating game. Overall, I don’t buy it. I judge positively my everyone who subscribes and supports me, and am more inclined to talk to people who are in this circle of support than an individual who feels insecure about his self-image and doesn’t want to subscribe because he’s de afraid people will call him a “simp” or porn is free, even though I explicitly say that what I provide is not really porn but some sort of relationship to people and even a performance with my innermost desires flowing to the surface.
People continue to say, I want to know the “real you”. Sorry buddy but that surely does not exist, there’s no real anyone. We all just play various roles in specific contexts and with certain people. These roles we come to adopt as “our self” is partly conceived by genetics, it’s our biological propensities, our particular preferences, and by the culture and environment that inculcated us from birth. It’s difficult for many to separate which is responsible for what. Whether the traits we exhibited in childhood was simply by whim of genetics or was it the environment which encompassed us that really caused these behaviors.
All I know, I can’t pinpoint any specific “me-ness” underlying my present identity — there’s characteristics that, for the most part, remained consistent throughout my life but I wouldn’t say it’s a feature that is essential to who I am as a person, I could have easily been born the opposite and would have been the same person I am now. I feel I am many different people, but not in a way that is chaotic — I play various personas with differing people which depends on the dynamic of the relationship and how our personalities interact. I won’t say one persona is more “Authentic” than the other (which leads us to ask once again, what really is “authenticity” and why do we strive to display it in our lives? What value does it signal to others and to ourselves?).
Why do so many men feel entitled to my company, entitled to any woman’s company, simply for offering the bare minimum standard of reciprocal altruism which is pretty much ingrained in every functioning human’s genetics. No, there’s no underlying real self behind the OnlyFans persona, it’s all me — different aspects of who I am, parts of me I repress and accentuate at various times. I display characteristics of myself that I didn’t know even existed until the video camera turned on and it was like an unconscious foreign entity seemingly took over with an independent intent of its own to all out perform, which somehow stemmed from this unknown source of confidence and exhibition I didn’t know was possible to feel.
It just annoys me when men feel they can waltz up to me in the street with the expectation that I will be thrilled and ecstatic with them just literally asking for my number. I will tell them straight up that they can subscribe to my OF but that’s the best I can do in terms of further communication.
