Why I started an OF

Content Warning: Suicide, depression

Before I started my OnlyFans in August, I was in a very dark place. I’ve gotten to the point where I was legitimately prepared to shoot myself in the head and end it all. I don’t think people understand the gravity of my situation; I couldn’t even qualify for unemployment because I haven’t worked enough and no job it seems wanted to give me a chance or train me. For years, I constantly was let down by job rejection letters. All I wanted was to help ease the financial burden off my aging parents who are both 70. I felt like I was a weight bringing everyone around me down because I couldn’t support myself. I felt there was no future for me because I couldn’t find work and essentially had no savings. I hated the fact that I would have to ask friends to borrow money to get me out of the negatives, or that I couldn’t buy a lot of necessities simply because o just couldn’t afford to. I was this close to just buying scratch offs and just hoping I get lucky and make it big, because all the hard work I was putting into finding work was bearing no fruits in gaining employment. I truly felt hopeless about my situation and I kept telling myself if it doesn’t get better by this time, then I’m done. I can’t handle living life as a pathetic waste leeching off my parents. I decided to try one last option of finding income and that was Onlyfans. I was definitely hesitant because I felt it would debase my character but at that point, begging for money and just living in poverty was doing that as well, so at that point, I felt it was worth a shot. Now it’s December and I am so proud at how far my page has come and how much money I’ve saved from budgeting and being frugal. I am grateful for my subscribers who have supported me and continue to do so on this journey. 

The first screenshot is how my bank account looked often — I was in such a bad financially destitute position, I lost any sense of pride and shared this screenshot in order for someone to take pity on me.